What in the world has happened to this poor blog? I am so dreadfully behind. It reminds me of the journal-writing days of my youth.
I was a freshman in high school when I started keeping a journal consistently. I remember clearly sitting in Mr. Gould's World History class and being bored out of my mind. I would wish for class to be over (I had his class in the morning), then wish for school to be out so I could be home.
Later that day, when I was home, I would remember back to being in class and realize the time had passed quickly. It scared me. I didn't want to feel like I was wishing my life away. I wanted to have a record of all that I experienced. And so it began.
I wrote daily for many years. Family members, girls camp tent mates, college roommates, and friends can all tell stories of me falling asleep while writing in my journal. It didn't matter how late it was or how tired it was, I had to write something. I remember once waking up with red stains on my nightgown and freaking out thinking that I was bleeding to death, only to find the red ink pen from writing in my journal. Some of my favorite entries are the ones in jibberish as I was actually writing in my sleep. I was dedicated.
I have thirteen volumes of completed journals. However, volume XIII was started in December of 1997. My amazing journal-writing habit began to unravel when I was a missionary. On the plane to Italy, I committed to only writing in Italian in my journal. I love looking back now and seeing the evolution of my language ability. And, if I do say so myself, my commitment to reading, writing, and speaking Italian helped immensely as I learned to communicate. The benefits of that commitment lasted beyond my mission as I can still speak fluently. I feel very blessed.
On the flip side, since it took longer initially to write in Italian, I quickly fell out of habit. By the time the language came easily and fluidly, my routine was gone. Daily journal writing was no longer a priority. I still wrote home to my family in English, so I didn't miss out on recording my memories. If anything, my letters were even more detailed because of my lack of journal writing. {In fact, they were so long and descriptive that my bratty brother once told me he merely skimmed them. WHAT?!?}
Over the years, I've tried to get back into writing in my journal, but never with the same success as during high school and college. I don't have any regrets, but I still want to create a record of my life.
When I first stumbled into blogging, it was like a new awakening. Every day brought about some funny or introspective event and I would think, "Ooh, I should blog about that."
The Spring of 2009 was a busy one--my brother's 40th birthday, a trip to Disneyland, Easter, and I fell behind. Then the kids were out of school, summer was busy, and Gavin and I were gearing up for our A-MA-ZING Mediterranean Cruise. The more time passed, the more I missed out on and the more overwhelmed I became at catching up. Just like with journal writing, I felt compelled to keep everything in order, so I passed up blogging about current events because I still hadn't finished something from long ago.
No more. I'm not sure yet how I'm going to go about it, but somehow or other I'm going to get back on this blog-wagon. The numbers don't lie--2008 had 97 posts, 2009 had 38, and so far this year . . . EIGHT. Ouch. I can promise my life is no less eventful or stressful, and there is still plenty to say.
So I just have to do it. Ready or not, here I come . . .